Hmmm… Let me think.

Dear TripTeeKay, 

First of all, it says someone you don’t talk as much as I would like to. Although we do talk, we just don’t talk as much as I would love to. Like back in the day. But it’s understandable why we can only talk as much as we can, we’re all super busy! We have separate lives, goals and priorities that needs to be fulfilled. 

I’ve got to say though, every time we hang out it would always be hours of talking and laughing. Us and our corny jokes at each other. I love it. Thank you for all the support, advice and encouragement you guys have given me. There’s so much I can write about regarding our times together and just TripTeeKay in general. But I’ll keep that for some other time. xD 

Kat, Thuy, and Tracy: You guys are my bestest friends. Let’s continue to be from now and into the future no matter the circumstances okay? Let’s continue to hang out, laugh, confide in each other and support one another. I truly cherish our friendship. And I feel very fortunate to have you guys. BEST FRIENDS FOREVER okay? :D <3

Yours Truly, 

Yvonne T. Nguyen

Dear Soul Mate, 

Hello. Hi. Hey There. I don’t know how or what to say. Honestly, I’m always curious as to who you are. I am a believer that there’s a person that’s meant for each and every person. I hope to meet you soon or even better yet, I’ve already met you and just don’t know it. But I’m really anxious as to who you are.

I want to know of you now. I want to be able to look into the future without worrying of being left behind because I will know that you’re going to be waiting for me. There are so many things I want to tell you and share with you. You know, girls are like that. Well I can’t really say all girls. I’m like that. I think about you constantly. It’s funny, yet exciting about writing to you. But I’ll just stop here before I go all deep and crazy. I mean I can go on and on. But I shall just stop for when we do actually meet. But know this. I really do exist as you do too. Please wait for me. I am waiting for you. 

-Yvonne T. Nguyen

Regarding internet friend, I’m not sure what this meant either. A friend I met online? Or a friend that I talk to A LOT online? I’ll just write to the friend I met online.

Dear Draco?

Honestly, funny thing is I don’t even know your real name. I know you’ve told me, but I forgot it (sorry!). All I knew was the fact that you were my online best friend when I was in the Harry Potter RP world. (Dude, those were the days)

It has been years since I’ve last RP. I tried getting back, but I haven’t put as much the effort I did in the past. It was nice knowing you during my entire RP lifetime. You were probably the first person I met in the beginning. Then I went on hiatus, and then forever gone. You were a really great friend. You were always there for me when I needed someone to vent to. And I thought it was awesome how you and I were so close that other people were jealous haha. But you were so mean to my character though. She liked you a lot. And although you said that you liked her, you didn’t want to ruin the friendship now matter how strong is. But whatever the past is the past haha. But now, you and I both don’t RP. I don’t know where you are now, or how you’re doing.

I believe we’re both around the same age? (I’m terribly sorry for my forgetful memory) I hope you’re doing great. You and I both deleted our RP accounts, so I don’t think I will be able to find and talk to you anymore. It’ll be super awesome if we were to cross paths again. Thanks for being the great friend you are. I’m glad I’ve met you. Even it was through the virtual world only. It was nice. Until next time.

-Yvonne T. Nguyen 

a.k.a as you may know me “Eve Chang”

I’m not going to write to my crush, since I’ve already written one to you. I have girlfriends, but I don’t think it’s what it’s referring to. And lover? I have none. Sadly, Ex it is.  

Dear Ex,

As much as I don’t want to write you a letter, I’ll write one.  It’s either going to be really long or really short, I’m not sure because there’s so much to say yet not really. It’s either going to hurt me a lot or going to help me move on. Let’s hope it’s the moving on part.

Well in all honestly, I still think about you more often than not. I know it has been what, 3 years? But you were my first in many things. How can I forget it? To begin with, I’m not even sure how we ended. I’m grateful in a way that you’ve put a halt on our contact, or else I don’t think I’ll be able to move on ever. Sometimes, (okay so many times) I’ve wondered what you’re thinking, if you think about me as much as I thought about you or even if you regretted it. These past couple of years, I’ve felt that it was only me who tried to keep us in contact trying to maintain as good friends at least. I guess it was ONLY me that wanted to continue being good friends. I found that the hard way, you know how? Actually it was just recently. It may sound really childish but I found out because all these years, you’ve never wished me Happy Birthday even now. I’ve always remembered yours. Sometimes, I think you don’t even care now. I wish you’ve told me, or been straight forward with me instead of giving me false hope of time.

Did you know how much you’ve hurt me? These past years were really painful, perhaps the most painful I’ve ever felt. I prayed to God why I wasn’t accepted, why it had to end, hoping that it was all a nightmare. I prayed for guidance and help to recover. But I’ve learned a lot. I’ve learned that you and I weren’t just meant to be. I was naïve, I just wanted too much from what you couldn’t provide, I’m selfish and you know what I realized? I wasn’t myself with you. There were many things I “changed” in front of you. Just so you can like me. I really liked you a lot. Was it love? I’m not sure. I don’t know. But whatever it was, it was strong enough for me to still dwell with it sometimes, even now. But it’s probably because you were my first.

I don’t regret our relationship at all. You’ve given me my happiest and you’ve also given me my sadist. Ever since we’ve reached our final destination, however much I really dislike at you this moment I want to thank you. Thank you for giving me this experience. Thank you for caring about me for a little while. Thank you for listening to everything I have to say. Thank you for being with a person like me. Because of you, I’ve become compassionate, I’ve deepen my faith because he has given me strength. I now have strength for the rest of my journey in life.

I am glad that I wrote this. I know that you’re not going to read it ever, but still writing this all out did me some good. And seriously, you suck cause now everyone else is going to be somewhat compared to you. Not because you were “great” but because you were my first. Yeah, you still pop up in my head once a while because I’m comparing others to you. But anyways, I think I can move on now. You weren’t the one for me. I think I’ve finally let go.

I hope you’re doing well. And that you’re taking care of yourself. All I can do now is to wish you for happiness. I’ve always wondered, if I take a look back at our relationship how necessary was it? I want to see how it was meant to be part of both our lives. Because you know the saying, “people meet for a reason”. You and I met each other for a reason. We were meant to be part of each other’s journey. Although we don’t know the reason but there’s one. Even if ours together ended, we can now look back and say “thank you” for that experience shaped us to how we are now.

Was yours truly,

Yvonne T. Nguyen

Dear Stranger, 

Hmm, I wondered why you and I never met. But when we do meet, I hope that  I am full of energy and happiness. I like to give the impression that I am a happy go lucky kid. I like to joke around and be a complete dork (at times). Although I am fun, I hope that when you meet me you can see that I am a very passionate,  caring and a nice person with high morals. :]

I guess writing a letter to a stranger is going to be like writing to a penpal, just like how we wrote them in elementary school. Oh I loved penpals. How are you? What do you like to do for a living? How’s the weather over there? Is it hot? I hope you’re not getting this weird California weather that I am getting. It was super scorching hot last week, we hit 113 degrees! And this week it was pouring rain like no other. And I checked the weather for the coming up week, and it’s going to be hot again. Geez louise, California is so bi-polar. 

I hope that you’re enjoying your life at the moment. Mine is going okay. It’s a bit rocky in every department, but i’m bearing it. My mind is going all over the place, I can barely focus. But I’m trying my best. I hope you and I get to meet soon. I have so many stories to tell you. I love to make new friends, so hurry up and let’s find each other! Okay?

Your new friend, 

Yvonne Nguyen

Dear Dreams, 

I’m sorry, I never seem to remember you when I wake up. I’ve only remembered my nightmares. :[ I am not sure which dreams are being referred to either. My dreams and aspirations or my dreams that goes through my head when I sleep? Since I do not remember any of my dreams when I sleep, I will just write my dreams and aspirations. In all honestly, how do a person write a letter to their dreams? It’s probably going to be all about nonsense. I’ll keep it short. Pinky promise. 

Dreams, sometimes (probably most of the time) I wish I can see you clearer. You’re pretty blurry at the moment. I’m not sure what I really want to do in the future. And that is my number ONE fear, is my undecided future. People have asked me, so what do you want to do in life? Sure I have a rough idea, but i’m not sure if that what I really want to do. Of course I’m going to graduate and get a degree. But that’s all I have so far. With the degree what am I going to do with it? That’s where I can’t really see you. I wish I know, and I wish you can help me realize what it is.

Although, I’ve felt that the new life I’ve started had a really rocky beginning. I hope it all ends well. I’m not going to give up, but I have a feeling, that I’ll be disappointed in myself that I’m not going to achieve it as best as I could have. I wish I had my life already laid out for me, and which path to take. But no, there’s many detour routes, and of course with my sense of directions, i’m going to be lost for a long time. 

Yeah, I can say my “real” dreams are to have a family and get married. But can it just be that? Can it not include a career and financial ambitions into it? I just want to love and be loved, support and be supported. Can that be my dream? It’s going to be a really long time for me to get married, no one is going to marry a person like me haha. 

Dreams, I know i’m really far away from you. There’s just so many detours! But please wait for me okay? I may be blind and all I see is a huge blur right now, but I will find my way eventually. And I hope and will be forever awaiting that day where I can finally see you. 

- Yvonne

In my case it’s going to be sibling(S) I have TWO (2) and love them both equally. 

Dear Kevin & Matthew:

You two are the best brothers a sister can ever have. You both are super dorky, nerdy and retarded like me. 8] I guess that’s why we are siblings. We think alike. But I’ll simply write a paragraph for each of you. Starting with the older one.

Kevin: Although you and I have a 4 year age gap, I still can talk to you about everything and anything. And I’m thankful that you listen to me. Even when you really hated it. I’m thankful that you listen to all my complaints, all my whines, all my stupid stories, all my boy problems you pretty much listen to everything I can never tell mother and father. Plus, when I tell you to keep a secret you keep it. I’m glad that you’re the type of sibling I can actually hang out with. Although, you and I had our major MAJOR conflicts when we were younger and never got along. But i’m glad that we do now. It’s nice talking to you about everything now. Especially during dinner time, car rides, whenever we are bored and our retarded jokes. Yup. :]

Matthew: Hello little genius. As much as I don’t like you knowing very random weird facts and very weird ridiculous vocabulary (knowing more stuff than I do), I think it’s funny. I’m sorry i’m not a better sister. It’s terrible that you and I didn’t really get you hang out. And whenever you need me to listen to your story or how your day went, I’m always busy. It sucks that you and I have a huge age gap, but I’m doing by best to hang out and talk to you. I am working to buy you, me and Kevin a Disney pass so we can go to Disneyland like everyday! Since you’ve never gone to Disneyland before. I know mother & father don’t have the energy and strength to take you. And it’s almost all on me to take you. And I am working to get all of us that. It’s going to have to be 3 months to make enough to pay for all 3 of us, so you’re going to have to wait until February next year or so. But I’ll get it for you promise for your birthday (at least)! Although it kinda annoys me that you are so nit picky about everything and you’re so clingy and such a mommy’s boy who doesn’t know how to do house work. I still love you and I’ll give you some slack because you’ve lost all the experiences Kevin and I had when we were younger such as going to Disneyland. I’m so sorry that you’ve never gone before. That’s why my promise to you is you be able to buy those passes for the 3 of us. (Hopefully Kevin can pitch in 100 for his pass or something). Also i’m expecting you to go to an ivy league school okay? haha <3

All in all, I just want to thank you two brothers of mine for dealing with me your entire life. Thank you for always having my back and helping me get out of trouble (most of the time). You guys are the best!

Your sister for life, 

Yvonne Thuy Vy Nguyen

Dear Mother & Father,

I’m sorry. I’m sorry for not being the kid you wanted me to be. I’m sorry for not growing up the way you both tried to raise me to be. I’m sorry for not being a daughther that is helpful at all.

Yes, I do know this, but deep down I cannot tell this to you directly. There are times where I just want to tell you. There are times where I want to tell you that I love you. But I just can’t. It’s been too long since I’ve said it. And I really do want to say it. But I just can’t. I’m too scared and it’s not something I can say soo easily with geniune feelings.

I know that I am spoiled. I know that I am selfish. And I know that I am super stubborn. Thank you for being my parents. Thank you for accepting me for who I am (like you have a choice, I am your daughter after all). True, there are times where I can’t stand you. There are times where I get so much pressure from you (yeah sure out of love I guess) that I get to the point where I couldn’t stand it anymore. I wish that I can just tell you what it is that is bothering me. But I’m shy around you guys.

I always envy my friends who has those “best friend” relationship with their parents. Where they could talk to their parents about ANYTHING. I really do want to tell you everything about my life. But I just can’t tell you. I really do, but I just can’t. I know this isn’t going to change over night, but hopefully one day it’ll change.

Your Daughter,

Yvonne Thuy Vy Nguyen

Dear Crush(es),

Normally I don’t write letters to crushes. Especially because you’re just a crush. Liking a person on the other hand, is completely different. Also to add, what do I write? I have no idea what to say to a person who barely knows me and vice versa. I can tell you from the get go, that this is going to be a short letter.

Anyways, this is going to be a combination of a couple of people, so this isn’t all one person haha. Truth be told, it has been three years since I’ve crushed/liked anyone. It’s funny, because I don’t know how it came to be. I feel like a middle schooler all over again, talking about boys with my girlfriends, asking for advice, getting all giddy  and actually look forward  going to school in hopes of seeing you. I just realized, you’re all the same race! I guess I am a bit racist on the dating perspective. Okay, maybe not racist, but have strong preferences.

It’s nice to have met you. I wish we hung out more, to get to know each other. I know school just started, and we kind of just met. I’m glad that you’re interested on joining PBL, and I hope that can be the leeway for you and I to get closer. Not only that, but we also work together. I like when we have down time and just hang out and talk when it’s not busy. I haven’t asked you yet, but I hope you’re not taken yet haha.

Let’s grab lunch together one day and just hang out and get to know each other more! :]

- Yvonne Nguyen

My Dearest Best Friend, 

I don’t know if you’re going to read this. Perhaps you have me on check by looking at my tumblr 24/7 or I told you that I made a post. Either way, I honestly don’t know what i’m going to write. I’ve known you me ENTIRE life. And I think that is the almost ONE thing I love to brag about. The fact that we’ve known each other literally since the day I was born to this day. And we still have the REST of our lives together to make a trillion more of memories. 

I’ll admit, I am kind of sad that you are so set onto moving to Korea. I understand that singing is your ambition and I respect that. I’m not going to tell you not to go, but I’ll be super sad. We barely even see each other. It’s lucky enough that we see each other once a week. And when you go to Korea, it’s going to be like once a year that I’ll get to physically see you. I know we can always skype and whatnot, but I’ll miss your presence by my side. I’ve always thought about of us two (and maybe others) live together after we graduate, move out and be released from our crazy ridiculous families (finally). But when you do go to Korea, please be well okay? And if you can’t come back to the U.S. every year, or you have like only 2 “vacation” periods or something, you HAVE to come on my wedding day (if I ever get married). If not, I’ll be a lonely bride with no maid of honor’s shoulder to cry on. We have to make as much more memories as we can before you leave. 

I love our dorky moments, sitting next to each other yet we still text or IM each other. When we match without planning it. We know we hang out too much when our time is month is during the same time, that means break time from each other. Our deep girl talks. How we’ll spoon the other when either of us sleep. Our silly retarded moments of just being retards. I’ll miss doing EVERYTHING with you. We’ve gone clubbing together, eat together, traveled, slept, shopped, church even gone to the bathroom together. And if you are free tomorrow, we’re going to be getting our haircut together! 

I want to thank you for all the time you’ve been there for me. You’ve listened to my complaints, whines, cries, issues/problem, stories and heard all about my selfishness, you’re the one who knows the most about me. Probably knows almost all my flaws. 

Okay, I’m just rambling on and on now. I’ve written more than I thought. I can write you a novel (with sequels). But I don’t want to do that at the moment. And this letter turned out to be like an almost “good-bye” letter. But it’s not, I truly do love you. I know that you are always there for me and I will always be here for you. There is no one who can ever replace you. And if life ever started all over for me again, YOU BETTER be in it. You are definitely my other half, you cover the aggressiveness that I don’t have, you put confidence and have the confidence to motivate both you and I to do things that we aspire to do, you have the marvelous singing talent I can NEVER have and you are the strong brave one that will always be protecting the weak (like me) both physically and emotionally. Which I wish I was stronger in. But it’s okay, because I have you. Thank you. <3

-Yvonne Thuy Vy Nguyen

I stole this from the bestie, Thuy Pham, and thought it was really interesting. I want to participate in this! Hopefully I can keep up with it! *crosses fingers*

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror